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the war at home by lewis shiner
en of us in the back of a Huey, assholes clenched like fists, C-rations turned
to sno-cones in our bellies. Tracers float up at us, swollen, sizzling with
orange light, like one dud firecracker after another. Ahead of us the gunships
pound Landing Zone Dog with everything they have, flex guns, rockets, and
-calibres, while the artillery screams overhead and the Air Force
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A -Es strafe the clearing into kindling.
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We hover over the lz in the sudden phosphorus dawn of a flare, screaming,
Land, motherfucker, land! while the tracers close in, the shell of the
copter ticking like a clock as the thumb-sized rounds go through her, ripping
the steel like paper, splattering somebody s brains across the aft bulkhead.
Then falling into knee-high grass, the air humming with bullets and stinking
of swamp ooze and gasoline and human shit and blood. Spinning wildly, my
finger jamming down the trigger of the M- , not caring anymore where the
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bullets go.
And waking up in my own bed, Clare beside me, shaking me, hissing, Wake up,
wake up for Christ s sake.
I sat up, the taste of it still in my lungs, hands twitching with berserker
frenzy. M okay, I said. Nightmare. I was back in Nam.
What?
Flashback, I said. The war.
What are you talking about? You weren t in the war.
I looked at my hands and remembered. It was true. I d never been in the
Army, never set foot in Vietnam.
Three months earlier we d shot an Eyewitness News series on
Vietnamese refugees. His name was Nguyen Ky Duk, former arvn colonel, now a
fry cook at Jack in the Box. You killed my country, he said. All of you.
Americans, French, Japanese. Like you would kill a dog because you thought it
might have, you know, rabies. Just kill it and throw it in a ditch. It was a
living thing and now it is dead.
The afternoon of the massacre we got raw footage over the wire.
About a dozen of us crowded the monitor and stared at the shattered windows of
the Safeway, the mounds of cartridges, the bloodstains, the puddles of
congealing food.
What was it he said?
Something about gooks. You re all fucking gooks, just like the others, and
now I ll kill you too, something like that.
But he wasn t in Nam. They talked to his wife.
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l e w i s s h i n e r
So why d he do it?
He was a gun nut. Black market stuff, like that M- he had. Camo
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clothes, the whole nine yards. A nut.
I walked down the hall, past the potted ferns and bamboo, and bought a
Coke from the machine. I could still remember the dream, the feel of the M-
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in my hand. The rage. The fear.
Like it?
Clare asked. She turned slowly, the loose folds of her black cotton pyjamas
fluttering, her face hidden by the conical straw hat.
No, I said. I don t know. It makes me feel weird.
It s fashion. Fashion s supposed to make you feel weird.
I let myself through the sliding glass door, into the back yard. The grass had
grown a foot or more without my noticing, and strange plants had come up
between the flowers, suffocating them in sharp fronds and broad green leaves.
Did you go?
No, I said. I was I-Y. Underweight, if you can believe it. In fact I was
losing weight again, my muscles turning stringy under sallow skin.
Me either. My dad got a shrink to write me a letter. I did the marches,
Washington and all that. But you know something? I feel funny about not going.
Kind of guilty, somehow. Even though we shouldn t ever have been there, even
though we were burning villages and fragging our own guys. I feel like ... I
don t know. Like I missed something. Something important.
Maybe not, I said. Through cracked glass I could see the sunset thicken the
trees.
What do you mean?
I shrugged. I wasn t sure myself. Maybe it s not too late, I said.
I walk through the haunted streets of my town, sweltering in the
January heat. The jungle arches over me; children s voices in the distance
chatter in their odd pidgin Vietnamese. The tv station is a crumbling ruin and
none of us feel comfortable there any longer. We work now in a thatched hut
with a mimeo machine.
The air is humid, fragrant with anticipation. Soon the planes will come and it
will begin in earnest.
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1985
by Davis Publications, Inc. First published in
Isaac Asimov s SF Magazine
, May, 1985
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